If I don't work out in the morning, I have a hard time doing it at night. I am worn out from taking care of my kids and all I want to do is put the kids to bed then relax. Last night was a different story. When Ryan got home from work I went to a spinning class. I love spinning. I love how much it works me out and how much I sweat. I feel so good after I am done. I am definitely going to start going to spinning classes at night.

Ryan and I are going to sign up for another mud run. We had so much fun at the other one that we are excited to do another one. We have also decided that we are going to sign up for races at least every month. We found a 5k at Disneyland in September. We will run through the park. That sounds like fun to me. This will keep me motivated to keep working out. Speaking of which, I have to go work out now.

I just got back from vacation. Let me tell you, it is hard to stay on track when I am on vacation. I tried to eat the best I could but when on vacation sometimes I want to splurge and enjoy. And believe me I did enjoy. But I did work out. Not every day but I did it. I actually went to 2 classes at the YMCA. I didn't think the classes were going to be that hard but this instructor was seriously good. She worked me out. I was sweating profusely. She is an inspiration because she has 5 kids and looks like she has never been pregnant. She had a six pack. That is inspiring to me. I will have a six pack. I am not kidding. I really want one and I am going to try my hardest to get one.

I am glad to be home so that I can get back into my routine. I worked out today and it felt really good. When on vacation and going to the classes, it made me realize that I love be in exercise classes. So tonight I want to go to a spinning class and Ryan said he will be home early so that I can go. I am so lucky to have a husband who supports me in this. He loves me no matter how I look and that just makes me work harder because I want to look good for him.

I love to cook. I love to try new recipes. And I am always on the look out for a good cookbook or magazine. So last week I was at Target (my favorite store) and I saw this magazine called Clean Eating. I liked it but I will say that there are things that I will never try. Don't get me wrong, the recipes looked good but I am a mom of 3 kids and I need something that is somewhat fast and healthy at the same time. Okay back to the magazine. Their purpose for the magazine is to eat in the most natural state. It is not about dieting - it is about a lifestyle. I love that. I hate dieting and I have never really done it. I am a true believer of eating food in its most natural state. I buy my meat and milk organic as well as most of my fruits and veggies. I have a theory and it is only my theory so don't quote me on this. I see girls who are developing so much earlier these days. I take my girls to school and I see girls who are in 6th grade fully developed. I believe kids are developing early because of several things but one of them is the food we eat. We eat too much processed food. I don't want my girls to one of the fully developed girls by 6th grade. That is why I don't have food that is already prepared for us. It is a pain sometimes when we are in a hurry but oh well. I do these things for my family. I want them to be healthy and it is my responsibility to help them be as healthy as they can be. I don't want to sound preachy but these are things I have been thinking about. Am I just over thinking all this or do other people feel this way too?

My Epiphany

I have been getting frustrated because I am not losing the weight fast enough. I know there is no quick way to do it. Well there is but they certainly are not healthy ways to do it. So every year my family rents a beach house in the summer and goal was to be in shape. I wanted to look fabulous by then. So I am getting all stressed because it is a month away and I am definitely not at my goal. Last night I was talking to Ryan about it ( he probably gets tired of me talking about it) and I had an epiphany. I am not in the shape I want to be in by the beach house but I will look better than I did last year (of course I had a baby four months earlier then) and I will look better than I do today. As long as I am doing what I am suppose to be doing then it will happen. So there it is - my epiphany. I hate stressing over it and I know that there will be times that I will but if I just remember this I think it will help me.

Happy 4th of July!!!! So yesterday I struggled with working out. When I say struggle, I mean I did not want to work out at all. The night before was my mom's birthday and we had chinese food. I don't know if the food made me have a restless night sleep but when I woke up I was still tired. But being tired and having kids do not mix so I had to buck up and start my day. I ran a ton of errands and I knew I needed to work out but I could not motivate myself. Finally, when the kids were in bed I finally felt like I could do it but I was tired. So instead I plopped myself down in front of the computer and started looking at other blogs. These blogs were about working out and eating right and it totally motivated me. I ran for 30 minutes ( well actually run/walk). When I was done, it felt so good. Side note - I hate running! I have to at some point just push through the pain and just keep running. Why can't I like running?! I want to but then I don't. I have the mud run which is also a 5k in 13 days. I have to run. Any suggestions on how to start liking it?

After I worked out, Ryan and I watched "Taken". It was a little unrealistic but I enjoyed watching it. But it was a little disturbing too because of what happens to the girls. It really is happening today. I won't ruin it for any one but you will understand what I am talking about.

Right now I am going to try to run then we are headed over to my parents house to swim. I hope everyone has a wonderful 4th!

I struggle getting my work out in with kids. In the morning I get up and have a green drink (more on that later) then feed the kids. I can't work out until I put the baby down for a nap. Once she goes down, I have maybe a little over an half an hour to get my work out in. Then I have to shower and get the girls ready for swim lessons. It is hard but I have to do it. I try doing it at night but I am seriously wiped out from taking care of my little chick-a-dees. Now to add to my stress, I have signed up for a mud run. It is in 17 days. why did I sign up for it. I don't even like to run. I'm not in the shape I want to be in and now I am going to do this mud run that has obstacle courses. What was I thinking!!!??? Ryan is doing it with me and told me that he will stay with me the whole time. Still, I am so nervous for it.

I have been an avid reader of other blogs that discuss their journey to be healthy. They are quite inspiring. I decided that if I started a blog about my journey, I will be held accountable to stay on course. I know that may sound lame but I think this will help me.

So here is my story. Before I got married, I was into working out and eating right. But then I met the love of my life and we got married. We were so happy and just enjoyed each other and ate. I started to gain a little weight. Then I got pregnant with our first child and let me tell you I ate whatever I wanted. I did not care. So now I just had my 3 child (14 months ago) and I am tired of not being in the shape I want. I am tired of not feeling confident in the way I look. I'm tired of always thinking about my weight. I want to start this blog because I want to record my journey to being healthy.

So this is the beginning of my new life. My journey to a healthier me.


Here is my late afternoon snack. It is an apple with natural peanut butter with flaxseed. It was quite delicious. It will hold me over until dinner.


I luckily have a husband who will try my crazy ideas when it comes to food. He, of course, is a carnivore and so are our children. I like meat sparingly. I prefer chicken and fish. Occasionally I will like a good hamburger or steak but really for the most part I dig meals that have a lot of veggie, grains and fruit. So for dinner tonight I experimented with some tofu that is already flavored. I got it at Trader Joe's. My girls and even Ryan (my husband) liked it. I wasn't too worried about my girls. They will pretty much eat anything. Funny story - I was talking to a friend who was complaining how picky one of her kids were and I was agreeing saying I have a picky one too. She started telling me that the only thing he will eat is Mac and Cheese, hot dogs, etc. She asked what mine will only eat and when I started telling her, she laughed and said mine wasn't picky at all. She eats tofu, broccoli, corn, etc. The only thing she is picky about is when the meals have too much going on. For example, I made some lasagna roll ups that had spinach and mushrooms in it. She wouldn't eat it at first but once I expained everything in the dish, she was ok with it. Enough with that story. Let's get to dinner.

This is the tofu I got from Trader Joe's. I would totally use this again.

Now dinner tonight was my version of taco salad. Spinach, carrots, cucumbers, zucchini, broccoli, blueberries, tofu and cilantro. My down fall was that I do not have a dressing that I love so I but about a teaspoon of ranch dressing. Oh, I also put some refried beans on top.

So there you have it. This is a start of a new me. I know I will have some downfalls but I need to get right back on track. Luckily, I have a great husband who loves me for who I am and is also doing this with me. It would be hard to do it alone.